Thursday, May 30, 2019

Oregon

Not too bad of a place, how can a place be too bad when in every small town there is at least one restaurant dedicated to pancakes?

And hotels have gardens?

And rest stops have homeless vets.
It seems obvious that vets should be taken care of by the powers that used them.

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

What a Ride

What a ride. Including replacing a car top carrier and getting our tire light fixed.

2 nights camping in the middle of the world's tallest trees
and I am imagining never leaving the trees. So I will have to bring some home. Although Minnesota is not likely to have the ferns nor moss. If I plant a grove now in 3,000 years we can have such awesome trees in our back yard. But also, we left this morning.

And traveled up the Oregon coast.

Now we are halfway to tomorrow's campground. Staying in a nice little hole in the city hotel.


Monday, May 27, 2019

This Hotel- future flashbacks

This Hotel has some very iconic murals in its stairway. When I walk it, I have future flashbacks.

Post-apocalypse type event, we are walking and find the stairs way- the roof is ripped off, it is covered in snow. But then I know where we are because I recognize those murals. I also remember the stairway doesn't improve the shelter situation.

Cathedral Trees (2)

sending my roots
deep into living water
drawing up life
drinking deep- long and sure
Up I reach
tall and strong
green in the sunlight
swaying with the breeze
firm in the wind

Sunday, May 26, 2019

Cathedral Trees

Today we made it to the Redwoods. They are majestic and awesome. We had to stop and hug some. And take pictures, those will come when I have home internet. Tonight we are in a quiet little town of Fortuna. This is so much more my pace than any city.  We are at a local restaurant, took a short stroll down the river walk and am now, feeling very tired, watching the kids swim while more laundry is done down the hall.

This morning we made it to a local ward. It felt good to be all the way across the country, but have it be the exact same church as at home. Different people to shake hands with, but it was still a small and struggling ward. Their YMs and Primary looked to be about as big as ours. Reminded me of what Nephi said about the saints being few in number- or about how we are the leaven/salt of the world and not the wheat. A little it rises/savors the whole loaf.

I think I will find some Redwood seedlings, I wonder if they will grow in Minnesota?

Saturday, May 25, 2019

Review

Looking over my lack of trip posts, I missed all of SLC and Nevada.
Nothing there was too exciting. SLC consisted of rain, and an Aunt's Funeral in Provo- on a rainy afternoon. We did meet my favorite of Mike's cousins again- Cindy and had dinner with her before heading back through rain, sleet and hail right up until the point of the mountains (the high point between the SL and Provo Valleys) and then the sun came out. I am beginning to suspect that the rain is following us.

Reuben took an instant liking to Cindy- hugging her repeatedly. Cindy was just as charmed with Reuben. They might be a good choice to take our kids should Mike and I both disappear.

Saying goodbye to Mike's parents is always hard, only seeing them every 2 years or so. They are looking good. Have lost a lot of weight and are looking healthier all around. Their dog, Jake reminds us so of Sam-Wise. Perhaps Sam had some border collie in him. He is about 2 years old and easily excitable but has learned a decent amount of tricks.

When we headed west out of SLC. I expected to see more salt flats, but what I saw instead was water everywhere in the desert. Rain and signs that there had been lots of rain, which of course brings greenness. 

We crossed into Nevada quickly. The most interesting thing besides rain in Nevada was the layers of mountains, each with different lighting as our backdrop. It was like some Chinese landscape painting coming to life. At the end of the day, we pulled into Reno and found out hotel. The pool was heated, so I shivered outside the pool watching the little ones play. I finally called them out of there when the wet toddler got me too wet to stay warm.

Hard to believe that was just one day ago.

Claustaphobia

Screaming like a bat- too high to hear
heart thumps
no place to breathe
to move

I will die if I stay.
All of me votes
let's get out

cost, doesn't matter
plans be damned

I am gone from this land
concrete jungle
stacked as cordwood to the sky
people and building
cars
cars
cars
racing all around
everywhere there are cars

but no gas
no fuel

clogging every lane
every turn

white lines of matching tombstones
lines of matching houses
lines of cars'

flying like bats out of hell





California

We got sunshine today!

Once we were out of beautiful Serria Nevada Mountains, screaming down I-80, at least not in rain, and not quite as suicidal as that into SLC, but still crazy mountain turns at 5-6% grade at 65 mph.

We entered California at the National Forest- felt awesome, especially compared to Reno, where we spent the previous night. Of course, National Forests are just awesome places. But after we left the national forest, it soon became apparent why California needs national forests- everywhere else is city. I was also amazed by the 10 shimmering lanes of concrete stretching from the mountains to the coast, stuffed with cars, with delays the whole way.

I have never seen more cars. Zowzer!

Heading into San Francisco, was 12 lanes of shimmering concrete with lots of delays. It took 20 minutes to go 10 miles. And then google didn't even warn us there was a $6 toll to cross the bay bridge into San Fransico.

How would I describe San Fransico? We made it all the way across, to our hotel, 1 block from the ocean. Unfortunately, the houses were so tight there was barely room for humans to squeeze between them- forget the possibility of parking a 12 passenger van. Which the hotel promised free parking- but that only included cars. When I got into the hotel to check in, I watched a little car do a 3 point turn to get out of the parking ramp. And the halls were soo tight. I felt claustrophobic- not something I feel too often. So I canceled that reservation and we hightailed it like bats out of hell- in heavy traffic out off San Fransico- but we did cross the Goldengate bridge- but the city was so crowded that I couldn't imagine stopping at the visitor/tourist center to buy my van a sticker- hopefully I can find one online.

And we just went north, until there was actually a little space between cities.

Now a family of 10 without a reservation on Memorial Day weekend is not an easy thing to accommodate- luckily we finally found something at the 4th hotel we tried, at only triple the price I would normally pay. (My phone died so I was out that ability while it recharged enough to turn on).  Thanks to internet access, I have made some nice plans for tomorrow.

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Need Sunshine

Help!
 I need sun
light to power
me
my solar batteries are running
low
my energy needs are high

at this rate, I should have been born
a wind or water turbine

but I am a sunflower
reaching up and towards
growing stronger every day

needing the rays of warmth
to bloom

wilted
battered
dropping my green leaves

waiting for your glow


Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Tuesday- more snow

Woke up this morning to 4-6" of the cold wet white stuff everywhere. And all along the freeway today. We had about 10 minutes where the sun broke through and then it would snow again. But finally, as we were on the final crazy descent down I-80 (at 75 MPH, at a downhill 45-degree angle, around curves, in standing water on the 4 lane freeway) into Salt Lake, it stopped and became dry about the time we hit the valley floor. When we arrived we brought in our rooftop carriers, some were retaining water and so were some of our sleeping bags. Even the better of the two carriers just couldn't compete with 3 days of rain and snow.

But now, I am up late at night, while everyone else is gently snoring because the hotel allowed me to use their laundry- not guest laundry, but the laundry where they do all their bedding and towels to dry my very soaked bedding. Yeah for awesome hotels!

Meanwhile, for everything that only got damp, they are stretched out over our two rooms. I expect the air will do a pretty job on those.

Monday, May 20, 2019

Monday- snow

So our summer vacation saw it's first stops today: Mount Rushmore!

It snowed. the higher in the hills we went, the more it snowed

When the mist cleared enough the melting snow made it look as if
George Washington had a bad head cold. The melting snow running down his face like snot and tears on a crying toddler.

We took photos, hehehe.

You can't even tell we were in front of Mount Rushmore.
it looks like any other mountain in the mist.

And now we are in the pool- with Clay doing cannon balls, I am happy this laptop is waterproof.

Somewhere in WY

Somewhere in Wyoming
 snowing at the end of May
We have all ten of us in our van
driving through the day

The toddler sits there crying
we can not find what he wants
we offer him some water
or even a change of pants

outside in the snow-covered green grass
some cows discretely graze
hey "look cows!" we say
and attract his gaze

he shuts up for several seconds
pretty soon we see a horse
"Look horsey"
he quiets and looks, of course

hey look, a truck
 some scrub brush
a coal train
 look for Batman.
There's a hush

What would Batman look like
among the hills and plains?
how would he carry out his duties
with his brawn and brain

he could help a stranded motorist
maybe change a tire
he could set up some cell signal
a boost in strength acquire

maybe he'd be the first on
the veterinary birthing scene
making sure every newborn calf
was warm and safe and clean

Standing over the hills
silhouette and cape
waving in the waning light

watching over the safety
of all in Wyoming
this and every night












Sunday, May 19, 2019

Trip

Because I have it set up that I can post to this blog from my phone, it is going to have the record of our trip.

So today, after the Piano Recital for my daughter we headed out and are halfway across South Dakota. Tomorrow we will take a family summer vacation photo at Mount Rushmore-  while it is supposed to be snowing. Luckily we will most likely be out of the worst of the storm before it hits.

Tonight we had to lecture the kids that double beds are for 2 people. And that van benches can also hold several people.

Sigh- Think they will be used to sharing their personal space 2 weeks from now?

The Left Behind Award goes to . . .

So here we are loading the last items up for our trip and we find Roo's water bottle sitting there. Dad goes to bring it out to Roo in the car only to find out that he is not in the car. The kid was still in bed.

We are going to have to keep a special watch on that kid this trip. He has won the most likely to be left behind award.

Friday, May 17, 2019

Old White Men




Old White Men

Old white men
With degrees Daddy bought them
Pretending they know something
Distrust all decisions
They never made themselves

They shun the poor
Because they don’t understand
They shun the “colored”
Because they don’t understand
They try to control women
In this land

Their aim
Make money
Stay in power
They don’t understand
Those things don’t matter

that
We are all children of the same God.


Older White Men

Their wives beside them
Called of God
Serve in His name
By His word

In the middle of the night
Awake receive and write
Revelation
Having trained themselves
From when they were young
To listen

A life of service
Navy suits
White suits
Ministering
One by one
Rich, poor, men, women, children
All colors under the Son
For they understand
We are all children of the same God.

Strength is for

Strength is for serving others
power is for serving others
ability is for serving others
to be great- you need to minister to other

ministering to others gives us strength
ministering to others grows our abilities
serving others makes us great

Mark 10:42-45

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Mark 10:21

I would drop all and follow you
as long as I could take my family and doggies too
the young ones would come without hesitation
 teens would need a little more affirmation
sell all my stuff, happily, please
making relocating to Zion a breeze

Not your Acolyte

I don't want to be an acolyte
to the institutions formed by men
I don't want to be an acolyte
to follow their ideas, their footsteps
that's not who I am

There are higher, holier ways
I am pulled upwards by my heart
there are higher, holier ways
 I want to be as God art

To follow men will leave me earthbound
a place of limited vision
To follow God will stretch my sights
to heaven

and beyond
to comprehend all time, all things
to feel compassion and love

So don't expect me to follow you, man
your institutional rules do not bind me
So don't expect me to follow you, man
I will learn and take what is good

then follow my heart
I am not your acolyte
then follow my heart
reject what is not right

Sunday, May 12, 2019

Mat 14:22-33

what is upon the waters?
a light coming towards us
a spirit? a sprite?

no, it is my Lord
waves lap his heels

Lord, if it be thou
bid me to come to thee
upon the water

Come

Only Jesus could tell me to walk on water
I can do it because he says

with my eyes fastened on him
I step out of my boat
I am walking to Christ

wave wet my knee
look down
     begin to fall
water  at my head
Help! Lord Save Me!

Immediately Jesus
Stretching his hand to me


Certain Women

I have come with oil
sweet and rich
tears to wash your feet
my heart is broken
hope is full
my debt through thee
is paid in full

1 Ne 18

Curious Workmanship

Balls and boats
our very lives
after the manner shown by God

pray oft
the Lord will
show you great things

workmanship
 exceedingly fine

Humble yourselves
Board the Boat

do not make merry or gloat
or pick on younger others

sore tempests await
untie your brother
or perish in the storm
of your own making

The Rock of Revelation

revealed to Peter
that Jesus,
AKA son of Joseph
a thing that came out of Galilee
the whom who broke the Sabbath day
      healing a withered hand
that thou, thou are the Christ

Whom do I say that thou art?
When I search my soul
Do I know
     Have I relied on
            Cried out to
                   Saved by
                         Refined by
Made to shine like thee

1 Ne 21

He has made my mouth
     a sharp sword
in the shadows of his hand
     He has hid me
made me a polished shaft
in His quiver
     He has hid me

and now
     says the Lord
who formed me from the womb
so I could be his servant

to bring Jacob again to Him
though Isreal be not gathered
I shall help this marvelous work

and I shall be glorious in the
     eyes of the Lord
my God shall be my strength

The size of your faith or the degree
of your knowledge is not the issue
it is the integrity that you demonstrate
towards the faith you do have
the truths you already know

Make bare your arms, Lord
Bless all nations
with the mighty work and wonder
thou has promised us
until thy covenants
shall fill the earth
like a sun when it rises
fills the sky with light

Free us from captivity, Lord
pull us out of darkness
     out of obscurity
gather us into lands
we shall tend

the abominable among the earth
shall fight with themselves
get drunk off their own blood
stumble and burn

Samaritan

Samaritan

The priest did not risk
touching a dead body
       make him unclean
 to serve in the temple this trip

the Levite- similar excuse
fear of getting involved
     dirty his hands
slow his work

But the Samaritan knew
felt  like to be
ignored and ostracized

 he had compassion
willing to stray
     from his schedule
to help the needy
to bind the wounds
place in an inn
     even give of his  money

Friday, May 10, 2019

To my dear 18 year old

Do you know how much I love you
how I put your work first
     let you triumph
   as I look on Proud

How I pray and hope and dream for you
How I want to carry you back to the fold
safe in the pen with me

How I wait for you to see the large picture
view eternity
and never forget
promises you made
before you came to earth, to me

6 things I believe

1. Christ is our redeemer
2. Men and women can be gods
3. Families are forever
4. Love is an action word
5. All tech is a two way sword
6. We can train for our missions
7. Cinnamon rolls are God's gift to mothers

Current Bush

I'm a current bush
reaching for the stars
becoming a tree
the goal for me

don't cut me down
don't hold me back
it hurts to be pruned
naked and exposed
without my branches
battered by the wind

but now I see berries
tender fruits
to savor

worthy of jelly and jams
perhaps being little
is what I am



Thursday, May 09, 2019

stuff

don't work to receive
work to become
stuff; recognition, money
nice, but not necessary

focusing on Stuff
lose perspective
all we own
determine what we have
for the world in the eye of the beholder

Wednesday, May 08, 2019

Wholeness

Complete
"Thy faith has made thee whole"

without faith are we not then incomplete?
something un fullfilled, undone?

Do we not want to be complete
and with God one?

Gratitude
How close is it to faith?

3 strands of a braid
faith, gratitude, charity

charity would then be action on the faith and gratitude

what about hope? perhaps hope and gratitude are the same things, one looking forward, one backward

would that not breed love?
and from love the actions of charity


hole

I am not pro-abortion
no one is
I'm pro medical care
I believe a woman, her support network and her doctor
should figure out what is best
not a law, or governement
every situation is differnt
but they all leave
a hole in our heart
where a baby should be

Rethink

I had an abortion
Me, a Christian woman
Mother of 8
I love babies
I had to
Without it
I would still be carrying
A dead fetus inside
I would only be

Mother of 3

Saturday, May 04, 2019

Ancestors

What beautiful people they are
staring at me from brown toned photos
taken when they were young
what amazing people they became
what lives they loved and lived

Friday, May 03, 2019

Be Still

Do you think Jesus wanted to sleep 
when he calmed the sea?

standing on deck
rain, wind beating my face
waves taller than me
Am I uncomfortable 
enough to wake him?
Although I may not have 
power over winds and waves
-yet-
I control the storms
inside me
still my soul
cry out in faith
not fear
Peace
Be Still

Zion

Come
let us build
a city to our God
Brick by Brick
Equity
Justice
Mercy
Compassion
pave roads
with gold of Charity

Together our focus:
preparing
the world for Christ

Gather all in
Redeem
the promise of Salvation

Put in the work
Study and pray
practice your architecture
Yourself
Your home
Your community
to build the city of God

Come
let us build
United
One

Wednesday, May 01, 2019

Angels

beautiful lights
peace of our happy dead
reach to touch my hand
they are ready, Am I?

Glitter

Plastic glitter- the kind used in schools
doesn't vacuum out of carpets
and is dangerous to ocean animals

Luckily, we don't need it

I see glittery leaves
as they flip front to back in the breeze

I see glittery frogs
as the light bounces off
their green speckled backs

on the waves of the lake
when the echos of sky get disturbed

in each
raindrop
dewdrop

eyes of a child

when you look at me
I see it in my heart
shining speckles of gold