Monday, August 27, 2007

The Straw

Quite often we feel like camels, whose burden seems too much to bear. We complain of the weight and want it lifted off. Some of us lay down when it feels heavy and refuse to move another step. Other camels trust that the weight will not hurt them. It may be hard, but it is good practice for carrying other loads in the future.

However, if you keep with it, after a while you will bear that burden with ease. The proverbial straw that breaks the camel's back is not added when your back is week, but after it is stronger. And then more weight is added, which in turn makes us stronger- to which a point will eventually come in which we can bear all things, and our back was never broken.

However, for the camel that felt the weight and laid down in despair or refusal, his back was indeed broken by the heavier load, because he never allowed himself to be strengthened to bear it.

D & C 78:18 Ye cannot bear all thing now. (notice the now part) and know that The Lord said "I will lead you along."

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Hi....long time, no see. Where have you been?

You wouldn't want to believe me if I told you. I have been...away. In my place has been a confused, ornery, dis harmonious....
It all started a week and a half ago, when my normal, calm, collected, patient, self was sent on vacation in a whirlwind of emotion spurred by one uttered phrase. "Not interested."

That was the answer I got when I asked for help from my husband, on what I assumed to be a family project. It brought back all the frustration I have had in the last 10 years trying to get him interested enough in anything other then video games and movies to do anything. (most days, anything at all).

It has been lonely, frustrating work trying to sort out the pile of rubbish I have collected in the last 10 years. But, fortunately I am into recycling and will see what can be made out of it.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

sometimes it just hurts

Sometimes you just hurt. And when it finally comes to a head and you realize why you hurt it hurts even more.

So I am going to echo a few lyrics I found printed on another's blog today.

Performer: SONiA
Album:No Bomb is Smart
Song: "Won't Let Go"

don't let go
just hold on
keep your eye on the road
and your heart in a song
whatever happened is already gone
don't let go

Performer: Bill Staines
Album: First Million Miles
Song: 'Phoenix'

Oh, Lord, have mercy on this poor, poor heart.
Take it from the ashes
and teach it how to fly again.
Oh, Lord, have mercy on this poor, poor heart.

Ever waiting to fly again.....