Shannon is becoming my little side kick. Most babies are just snuggly at this age- you carry them around and they just happily sleep. Shannon has to see everything. She wants to be involved, and yet I can see her by my side all the time, being my little side kick on all of our adventures.
what is interesting about her is that she is by my side all the time, yet has her own distinct personality. She is not an extension of me. She is very much herself. I think it will be fun to have someone to share my adventures with.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Saturday, August 02, 2008
the next phase
Well, baby is happy. She's just a peach.
And I am getting excited for my next phase of life. I am thinking of calling it "mommy hood without customers."
That's right I am thinking of focusing on the family more.... as soon as I work my butt off to close my business with out debt.
And then I plan to move into an educational phase and appear on the other side as a practicing midwife. I expect this change to take 5-10 years.
But in the immediate future. There are babies and houses and husbands (and their businesses) to care for.
And I am getting excited for my next phase of life. I am thinking of calling it "mommy hood without customers."
That's right I am thinking of focusing on the family more.... as soon as I work my butt off to close my business with out debt.
And then I plan to move into an educational phase and appear on the other side as a practicing midwife. I expect this change to take 5-10 years.
But in the immediate future. There are babies and houses and husbands (and their businesses) to care for.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
It has been a while since I have posted here. My arms have been very busy with the newest little blessing in our home.
I could just eat her up, she is so adorable. Oh how I have missed her. The other day, I was staring at her- as new moms often do to their beloved little babies -and I began to recognize the face I had seen so many times in visions and dreams. The face the puzzled me the first few times I saw it. I didn't know who it was then, until Mike drew the pictures.
I have longed to hold this baby for 4 years. And now she is almost constantly in my arms. Her sweet breath hitting my breasts. Her soft skin snuzzling against mine. Her eyes wide with wonder as she sees the world from my arms.
I could just eat her up, she is so adorable. Oh how I have missed her. The other day, I was staring at her- as new moms often do to their beloved little babies -and I began to recognize the face I had seen so many times in visions and dreams. The face the puzzled me the first few times I saw it. I didn't know who it was then, until Mike drew the pictures.
I have longed to hold this baby for 4 years. And now she is almost constantly in my arms. Her sweet breath hitting my breasts. Her soft skin snuzzling against mine. Her eyes wide with wonder as she sees the world from my arms.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Dreamy babies
I dreamed about my baby again. Both times it was the same baby, with thick dark hair. This time I was calling Mom after the baby was born to tell her and I forgot I was calling her and begun to clean the floor, until she started to say hello. Then I forgot about the baby until she started to cry for me. She was left in the other room.
It is very interesting to see such intense focuses in dreams. Usually dreams seem so unfocused.
It is very interesting to see such intense focuses in dreams. Usually dreams seem so unfocused.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Life is fleeting
"Life is fleeting. All that separates us from death is a single heartbeat or breath."
Said one of the General Authorities at yesterday's afternoon conference.
And it is. Our poor bunny was kid handled to death yesterday. Somehow she ended up in Clay's hands, after being handled by Galen and Ian some too. This weekend she barely had a chance to be in cage, she was handled so much, which it tough on something as fragile as a small rabbit. I rescued her and put her on my desk, where she had to prodded to go behind the computer (one of the safer retreats). But alass the effort was too little and she died in her cage sometime yesterday evening.
I was saddened, but deeply grateful that it wasn't Ian's life whom slipped away quietly as he slept. Ian tried to stand on a basketball yesterday and the smack of his head hitting the floor was quite loud. He has a goose egg about the size of a XL hen's egg on the back of his head. We could have just as easily have lost our Ian in that instant or in the hours following.
Clay, of course, has no comprehension, of the loss of our bunny. And it is Galen and Ian we must impress it upon, so they understand the fragile nature of life, and the value in it.
Said one of the General Authorities at yesterday's afternoon conference.
And it is. Our poor bunny was kid handled to death yesterday. Somehow she ended up in Clay's hands, after being handled by Galen and Ian some too. This weekend she barely had a chance to be in cage, she was handled so much, which it tough on something as fragile as a small rabbit. I rescued her and put her on my desk, where she had to prodded to go behind the computer (one of the safer retreats). But alass the effort was too little and she died in her cage sometime yesterday evening.
I was saddened, but deeply grateful that it wasn't Ian's life whom slipped away quietly as he slept. Ian tried to stand on a basketball yesterday and the smack of his head hitting the floor was quite loud. He has a goose egg about the size of a XL hen's egg on the back of his head. We could have just as easily have lost our Ian in that instant or in the hours following.
Clay, of course, has no comprehension, of the loss of our bunny. And it is Galen and Ian we must impress it upon, so they understand the fragile nature of life, and the value in it.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Church Cleaning
our church has a policy that every week a family is assigned to clean it on Friday or Saturday to prepare the meeting house for Sunday.This policy was enacted so that the members would take more responsibility and pride in their buildings. Most of the time the family is only assigned once every year or two.
This week it was our turn. And we found a nice babysitter for each of the children (thank you sitters!) and that allowed us the time and focus we needed to enjoy working in th Lord's house. The quiet spirit that rest there is always a welcome change to the hectic pace and noise of normal life.
And it is not like the work is hard. They have a nice list of what we are supposed to accomplish- most of it is spit and polish for Sunday. We wipe the sinks and mirrors in the bathrooms, pick up anything we see on floors, shine the front windows, take out the trash, sweep the gym. We don't actually scrub anything, and mostly can just enjoy the quiet while we walk around with a dust rag and a broom.
Overall, especially with this being Conference weekend (where there is no break from the children). I think it was just what I needed.
This week it was our turn. And we found a nice babysitter for each of the children (thank you sitters!) and that allowed us the time and focus we needed to enjoy working in th Lord's house. The quiet spirit that rest there is always a welcome change to the hectic pace and noise of normal life.
And it is not like the work is hard. They have a nice list of what we are supposed to accomplish- most of it is spit and polish for Sunday. We wipe the sinks and mirrors in the bathrooms, pick up anything we see on floors, shine the front windows, take out the trash, sweep the gym. We don't actually scrub anything, and mostly can just enjoy the quiet while we walk around with a dust rag and a broom.
Overall, especially with this being Conference weekend (where there is no break from the children). I think it was just what I needed.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Divine Motherhood
There is something Divine about motherhood. Especially when a little one is cuddling up to you, around your belly, and he falls asleep with head against your heart.
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