your light poofed out
You became unlit
golden curls became brown
smiles to frowns
You were so happy once
you knew who you were
you had a plan, a destiny
not many years ago
we worried
we fought
you gaming all day
straying away from what you knew
listening to the voices of disbelief
late into the nights
the temptress call of the lemmings
easier not to disagree
to take on the thinking of those around you
ultimately though
it was your choice not to believe
in the world of doubt and skepticism
being a cynic is hailed as wise
I pray for you
as I have night and day
with each breath
for the last year
I want grab you
never you let you go
sands of time slip faster for those that grasp them
so you would for me
so I invite
encourage
support
help you to be the best you can
but it is
Ultimately
your choice
Thursday, June 27, 2019
Wednesday, June 26, 2019
John 21
Did the disciples just not get it?
The Savior taught, suffered, died, was resurrected and you go back to your nets?
Back to your old jobs
Was it fun while it lasted?
No wonder He said to Peter three times "Feed my sheep"
Did they not realize that their life would change permanently?
That Christ would change them forever?
Hey Dudes, the gig is not up yet. The nets are full- be fishers of men
The Savior taught, suffered, died, was resurrected and you go back to your nets?
Back to your old jobs
Was it fun while it lasted?
No wonder He said to Peter three times "Feed my sheep"
Did they not realize that their life would change permanently?
That Christ would change them forever?
Hey Dudes, the gig is not up yet. The nets are full- be fishers of men
Tuesday, June 25, 2019
Mary Came
John 20
Mary
She saw the angels
yet she did not know
where they had lain her Lord
She talked to a man
yet she did not see
who it was
until he called her name
She knew his voice
her shepherd
her master
but she couldn't hug him
- yet
Go tell the others
was His command
as it is still to us today
Peace be unto you
Thomas
It was Thomas who wanted to be sure
the other disciples were not deceived
But he stayed with them
fasting and praying
worshiping
On the 8th day
his patience was rewarded
Come Thomas
feel the nail prints in my palms
reach your hand into my side
and believe
Mary
She saw the angels
yet she did not know
where they had lain her Lord
She talked to a man
yet she did not see
who it was
until he called her name
She knew his voice
her shepherd
her master
but she couldn't hug him
- yet
Go tell the others
was His command
as it is still to us today
Peace be unto you
Thomas
It was Thomas who wanted to be sure
the other disciples were not deceived
But he stayed with them
fasting and praying
worshiping
On the 8th day
his patience was rewarded
Come Thomas
feel the nail prints in my palms
reach your hand into my side
and believe
Monday, June 24, 2019
Lack of belief and stupid decisions
Well, I finally got some insight to Republican beliefs. My son had his name withdrawn from the roles of the church. He says he doesn't believe that it is true and the action is nothing personal. He doesn't care what others believe about it. The full effects of his actions were not known to him before he did it. But he doesn't believe it, so it doesn't matter.
Reminds me of climate change deniers. Whether or not you believe is not the questions. The question is what is really happening? What consequences are your actions/inactions causing for the rest of humanity? Consequences don't go away because of your belief or disbelief.
Stupid kid, you found the one thing you thought you could rebel about with no consequences. All powerful mom cannot make these consequences go away with a few phone calls. They are yours to deal with. They shake the foundations of your eternity. You just made your easy road hard.
Reminds me of climate change deniers. Whether or not you believe is not the questions. The question is what is really happening? What consequences are your actions/inactions causing for the rest of humanity? Consequences don't go away because of your belief or disbelief.
Stupid kid, you found the one thing you thought you could rebel about with no consequences. All powerful mom cannot make these consequences go away with a few phone calls. They are yours to deal with. They shake the foundations of your eternity. You just made your easy road hard.
Sunday, June 23, 2019
Olive Trees
AbundantWriter wrote this- and I asked her if I could put it on my blog.
In the garden of Gethsemane
ancient olive trees stood witness the night our Savior wept and prayed unto His Father.
They did not sleep.
They stood a silent vigil offering their energies to help him who had created them.
branches quivered as they felt him take on the agony of all the world sins.
An eternal and infinite sacrifice.
They wept with him and cried with him as his drops of sweated blood fell to the ground.
This God, this chooses Son of the Eternal Father.
Who was the only one who could over this divine sacrifice.
The Olive trees saw his disciples sleeping.
witnessed the crowd of soldiers and leaders of the Church in Jerusalem come and take him
like a criminal.
This man, this God who had just taken on all their sins.
Even in His weakness he cared and loved them.
He healed the servants cut off ear.
He warned and forewarned his disciples of what was about to happen.
in their limited understanding they were overwhelmed.
The Olive trees saw it all and cried.
They told all the trees and the Earth wept.
The earth wept so hard it shook.
The Cross was lifted up with this innocent man.
As he still showed his caring and love for others the earth listened in silent wonder to his last words.
As it heard “It is finished “ it shook even more and those at the cross knew,
God had witnessed the work of His Only begotten Son and acknowledged it.
I believe ancient Olive Trees were also witnesses as the angels rolled away
the stone from the borrowed tomb.
Trees witnessed the disciples running to see the empty tomb.
saw the joy in those that finally understood what the Savior has been teaching them.
He had overcome death.
He had overcome and so can we.
In the garden of Gethsemane
ancient olive trees stood witness the night our Savior wept and prayed unto His Father.
They did not sleep.
They stood a silent vigil offering their energies to help him who had created them.
branches quivered as they felt him take on the agony of all the world sins.
An eternal and infinite sacrifice.
They wept with him and cried with him as his drops of sweated blood fell to the ground.
This God, this chooses Son of the Eternal Father.
Who was the only one who could over this divine sacrifice.
The Olive trees saw his disciples sleeping.
witnessed the crowd of soldiers and leaders of the Church in Jerusalem come and take him
like a criminal.
This man, this God who had just taken on all their sins.
Even in His weakness he cared and loved them.
He healed the servants cut off ear.
He warned and forewarned his disciples of what was about to happen.
in their limited understanding they were overwhelmed.
The Olive trees saw it all and cried.
They told all the trees and the Earth wept.
The earth wept so hard it shook.
The Cross was lifted up with this innocent man.
As he still showed his caring and love for others the earth listened in silent wonder to his last words.
As it heard “It is finished “ it shook even more and those at the cross knew,
God had witnessed the work of His Only begotten Son and acknowledged it.
I believe ancient Olive Trees were also witnesses as the angels rolled away
the stone from the borrowed tomb.
Trees witnessed the disciples running to see the empty tomb.
saw the joy in those that finally understood what the Savior has been teaching them.
He had overcome death.
He had overcome and so can we.
Thursday, June 20, 2019
Trinity Church
Trinity Church
richly decorated
dark colors, elaborate gold
reminiscent of ancient churches in Europe
when the organ begins to play
loud, discordant
what effect are they trying to achieve
oppression in sin, all hope is lost?
dark wood, intricately carved
processional
pilgrims in an unholy land
robes of false priesthood
description of god as Female
philosophy of man
mingled with scriptures
through the eyes of a lonely poet
Satan has little to fear
from churches as these
no truth, except what ideas survive in ancient litany
It was easier to feel the spirit in the bathroom
expelling all the contents of my bowels
than in the worship service
richly decorated
dark colors, elaborate gold
reminiscent of ancient churches in Europe
when the organ begins to play
loud, discordant
what effect are they trying to achieve
oppression in sin, all hope is lost?
dark wood, intricately carved
processional
pilgrims in an unholy land
robes of false priesthood
description of god as Female
philosophy of man
mingled with scriptures
through the eyes of a lonely poet
Satan has little to fear
from churches as these
no truth, except what ideas survive in ancient litany
It was easier to feel the spirit in the bathroom
expelling all the contents of my bowels
than in the worship service
Pretty Much Unwitnessed
His most devoted disciples slept
while He bled from every pore
alone
mankind's burdens to bare
alone
will of the Father be done
alone
hinge point of human history
alone
with only an angel to attend
When you feel
alone
baring heavy burdens
alone
those around sleeping
peaceful innocence
Remember
you are not
alone
because He has been
alone
so He
alone
could succor you
He can see through your cracks
illuminate your heart
bind and heal
oil and balm
while He bled from every pore
alone
mankind's burdens to bare
alone
will of the Father be done
alone
hinge point of human history
alone
with only an angel to attend
When you feel
alone
baring heavy burdens
alone
those around sleeping
peaceful innocence
Remember
you are not
alone
because He has been
alone
so He
alone
could succor you
He can see through your cracks
illuminate your heart
bind and heal
oil and balm
Sunday, June 02, 2019
Life without web access?
The interesting thing about camping in national parks is that there is no cell signal. My oldest son lasted 3 days before thinking he would die from lack of internet. My next oldest lasted 4 days. Luckily they didn't all feel this way at the same time, or I might have had a mutiny on my hands.
It was funny though, that even though we were out in the wilderness, thanks to kindles ability to download and watch things later my kids still spend a lot of camping times with their faces glued to screens. I was spared any attempt to do that as my phone decided not to like the charger anymore, and the only thing I can do on my device without internet access is to take photos and play a word game.
We still saw awesome mountains, glaciers, volcanoes, moss-covered massive trees and sandy beaches.
But now we are on our way home.
Last night's campsite was not only fun to find- the "group" campsite that I reserved was not in the normal campground- with flushing toilets and access to water- no, it was a half mile up the road, with a latrine and no water access, except to a river- luckily we brought drinking water, and boiled the river water before using it to wash dishes. It actually ended up being nice and spacious,- with lots of privacy, while the normal campground had campers stacked as tightly as if it was San Fransico. It worked fine, but we decided to stay for only 1 night. And that mostly because I was too tired to go back out of the park and find a hotel. So we set up camp and cooked dinner, and then went and enjoyed the hot springs pools. I was really sore and the first access to hot water in days was too good to pass up, even at $11/head.
This morning we packed up. It takes us 2-3 hours to wake up, eat and break camp and get our van's 3 overhead carriers filled and attached. This morning I made pancakes. My boys, hoping to get back to internet access packed up their tent wet. I was patient and let the sun work while I made pancakes from my homemade mix that I had dragged over 3,000 miles to use. And I sweated by the time I was done packing up the tent. I was actually in full summer sun for the first time the whole trip! 2 weeks ago we were battling snow.
After we packed up we went to see the Hoh rainforest. Those trees aren't as impressive after hanging out in the redwoods, but it was still fun.
So now we are half way across Washington, heading east for the first time in over a week.
It was funny though, that even though we were out in the wilderness, thanks to kindles ability to download and watch things later my kids still spend a lot of camping times with their faces glued to screens. I was spared any attempt to do that as my phone decided not to like the charger anymore, and the only thing I can do on my device without internet access is to take photos and play a word game.
We still saw awesome mountains, glaciers, volcanoes, moss-covered massive trees and sandy beaches.
But now we are on our way home.
Last night's campsite was not only fun to find- the "group" campsite that I reserved was not in the normal campground- with flushing toilets and access to water- no, it was a half mile up the road, with a latrine and no water access, except to a river- luckily we brought drinking water, and boiled the river water before using it to wash dishes. It actually ended up being nice and spacious,- with lots of privacy, while the normal campground had campers stacked as tightly as if it was San Fransico. It worked fine, but we decided to stay for only 1 night. And that mostly because I was too tired to go back out of the park and find a hotel. So we set up camp and cooked dinner, and then went and enjoyed the hot springs pools. I was really sore and the first access to hot water in days was too good to pass up, even at $11/head.
This morning we packed up. It takes us 2-3 hours to wake up, eat and break camp and get our van's 3 overhead carriers filled and attached. This morning I made pancakes. My boys, hoping to get back to internet access packed up their tent wet. I was patient and let the sun work while I made pancakes from my homemade mix that I had dragged over 3,000 miles to use. And I sweated by the time I was done packing up the tent. I was actually in full summer sun for the first time the whole trip! 2 weeks ago we were battling snow.
After we packed up we went to see the Hoh rainforest. Those trees aren't as impressive after hanging out in the redwoods, but it was still fun.
So now we are half way across Washington, heading east for the first time in over a week.
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